Reply to About givin it up

I'm not sad about it, but realistic.

If it goes on like this I'm quitting, but i really won't.

My problem is my job takes a great part of my energies and other than that I travel 2h per day to get to work, so I have very little time for my self. I'm away from home like 12h/24.

On top of that I'm not able to emerge. I've tried very hard when i was writing my final thesis (a lot of free time!), knowing people, exercising, learning, social networking and so on. I djed in a little pub 5/6 times, a wedding and few private parties but nothing more.

Now I'm playing in my bedroom only since 6 months.

I simply can't continue to learn for myself only. I see it like if I have and audience and I getting something from it (at least for cover the gear costs) I putting all my self and my free time on it because i really like it. But do it only for myself, my entertainment... Nope. I can't exercise, digging new tracks and beatgrid and cue them to play in my bedroom. It just doesn't worth my time.

I'm in the middle: I need an excuse to push myself hard in it (like a job opportunity), I can't continue spending time and money for nothing.

And I'm sad because the few times I've done it in public I was really in love with it.
And I'm sad because I don't want to criticize other DJs but in many occasion I found myself in a club believeing "I can do it at least well like that, probably better" but they play in pubblic and I don't.

Anyone have already felt like this?

How it ended?

Thanks